July 26, 2006
Nerves
Originally posted on the Breast Health Online forum

6 a.m. the morning of my pre-op, and I'm too nervous/excited to sleep.  Originally I was planning to go into the office and work for a couple of hours first   --  my appointment isn't until 11:00  --  but I've had a mostly sleepless night and I'm quivering with nerves now and I think I'll just hang out at home this morning.  That will give me some time to drink (one) leisurely cup of coffee and compose my list of questions for the surgeon.   Most of my questions will be lifted directly from the BHO website: How much time off do I need to take from work?  How long does the surgery take?  What can I do to help reduce scarring?  How soon can I shower?

Some of my questions are more specific to *my* life and circumstamces: How soon can I resume bike riding? Is a laptop bag too heavy to carry after surgery?  Do I buy my after-bras before or after the surgery?  

And then there are the questions I probably won't be asking at all but can't help thinking about anyway: Will it hurt?  Am I doing the right thing? Will my husband still find me desirable?  

Will I wish I could go back in time and tell 35 yr. old Secra to use that inheritance money on a BR, instead of on a crappy used car that will break down in eighteen months?  

And  --  perhaps most importantly  --   What the hell does one DO with seven used 40DDD bras, anyway?

I'll check back after my appointment.

P.S.  It does look like David WILL be coming to the appointment with me  ...  thank god.  Maybe I should tuck a paper bag into my purse, just in case he feels the need to hyperventilate again?

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